Craziness and normal stuff

Well things have changed a bit and i won't give you the details because it might change again but it might be between 2 options one will cost money one will earn money and one is short one is long and it's just complicated i'm feeling a bit more intimidated i guess about the long one but again i'm trying to just see what God wants it's complicated a lot things try to band together to intimidate me but i listened to my christian playlist and i prayed and kinda took a time out . Which is what i needed . School is ok i guess. i finished history so now i'm just doing math later i'll do grammar and with math it's eh but i'll just work until i stop in may and i'll take the placement test again at community college to see if i can get a better score. My dad recently got disability. :-) yay! so we should get  somehelp with money which we need pretty bad. 

This fall looks crazy hopefully kay will have a car but something will work out i wish i could drive but so far i can't.. But again who knows? we'll see. 

Mostly i've had chuch chores and school all fun stuff. Kay might take me to go see taylor swift so that would be fun i hope we get to do that. :-)

30 hour famine was great by the way!  we raised a lot of money and i did actually sleep outside it wasn't so bad. We had teams to play games to make you think and our team won we got to pick out $50 worth of food for needy people. it was really cool. then we've had a few concerts and those were fun in one i had solo i did ok i think everyone said so . i was really nervous. Then the other concert i didn't but i just always had fun at both .

It's been cool how much my friends have been such good listeners when i need them to be. I just hope soon i can do the same for them if they need it . I'm not as delicate as some people think. And i guess i'm a bit more ready for people to start taking me seriously. I'm tired of how somet things are going with my friends. 

I might start eventually doing more college things but i wish i wasn't so inbetween . Either way things can be awkward for me but oh well. 

I'll write later. 

God is good all the time

Well things have been a little crazy for me trying to decide what's going to happen this summer ..But I've just had to remind myself it's all in God's hands.. I went bowling tonight and my best score was a 66. wasn't too bad for me I think haha.But lately been trying to do school and chores and church stuff I don't think I got a solo but i don't mind so much..I was worried about the tempo and everything anyways and how I would do with it. But in the end we'll see maybe they forgot to email me. Anwyays well I applied for a job but we'll see about it or the camp job I also applied too I hadn't heard from them in a bit so I emailed them they're checking everything out so that's good I guess we'll see.. Anways I was talking to my ' brother' today and it was really cool He was just there and he let me dump on him stuff and he told me he'd pray for me and told me I don't need to worry so much and I said now is the time I'm hoping to cherish but still to be a good steward of this time and make good use of it and he said even the times you think you wasted mean a lot to you , so that was nice to hear. It's a battle in me really. A lot ( even up to kinda now and yesterday..) I was wanting to get way into school ( more of a different reason but still in that I want to get it done sooner..) I did pretty well that day and I think I'll do more school at night and maybe on saturdays but I never do . Oh well . As long as I'm not slacking all the time... haha. Today I got most of my math done so pretty good.. I actually went to the library and got some books so I was reading some today which was nice.  I finished on my own which is about a girl who goes off to college. It was really good made me think of how eventually I hope to do that.. but one step at a time. Tomorrow night is prom get together and saturday hopefully hanging out with a friend and get to meet her friends. so that should be fun i'll write later