ugh today ugh. loong lesson went ok felt bad zeke crying but yeah. just tonight. stupid knee won't pop. feel bad cuz feel like been a jerk to robert stacy and liz and feel like let people at work down that i've ever done a rec shift with feel like an idiot having to be let in when I have the keys ! i am checking this door think it's locked it's not i'm trying to lock it check it and it is can't get it to unlock and then think i lock it again but don't wayne had to do it. . and then everyone else had to finish i feel bad they all finish 11:15 i'm not there i'm there we finish 11:30. :-/ uggh. really?? makes me feel like i am ocd and too slow. did i put sheet in right place ? feel idiot leading tyler around up running track cuz i have no sense of direction looking for g21 to get his ipod . and i didn't feed my fish. was that girl not supposed to be there?some girl said she wasn't a guest but had permission to be there was guest in past from hawaii?

Well a lot has been going on. We've finished up training had the first few weeks of conferences which has been awesome! I've gone to portland and seaside which has been fun. Also back to where liz is for a concert . Hung out with some awesome people laughed a lot. We've had lots of kids and a few kids. I turned 19 which was awesome .My mom sent me cookies! yaay. so that was fun. I got sung to like 5 times got a smoothie, ice cream, soap shaped like a bug , a dollar, cheerwine ( which i loooved) , the cookies, candy and a starfish. it was an awesome birthday. Bible study is cool love my roomies jamie and cece. I miss home somewhat but this place is pretty awesome. It was sad when i heard my twin sister was going to get proposed too and i wasn't even on the same side of the country. She said yes . I imagine my sister and mom being all excited about it and it is sad. I am excited for her but sad i have to miss that moment though it was at camp but still. The kids have been really cool. I like being in the nursery and getting better with the 2's and 3's I seem to like the really shy little girls a lot. There was one abby i got her to not have to be held the entire time. I got her to do a puzzle and later she played. Same thing with little girl ava. Sometimes they won't do everything but better then having to have one person one on one with them. It takes and bit and sometimes they have moments but it went well. Loving rooming with liz and schedules conflict sometimes but we both have wednesdays off. yaay. which is tomorrow. and better get some sleep if i want to actually be UP at all tomorrow and not sleep WHOLE day away and i had stuff i needed to do wash clothes pay for school hope to call people...