I am up and down again. i am depressed a lot. i got my license finally so that was good. after i got my brake lights fixed which really drove dad nuts. kay is gone a lot. my friends are busy. so it sucks. i can't wait for school to start. and i really hope i can find work soon. kay's leaving soon . i'll be alone. i don't know how i can take more then a month of this . and then a while longer for school to start.now have no clue how long i'm going to go to rccc or where i'm transferring too. it's been forever since i've been on a walk so i'm gonna go on one now.and ate a lot. i don't wanna get fat. aha. had good moment other night talked to God need some more of that. again as always i'm doing the best i can.

songs for people

To jobs I want to sing:
Take a chance on me ..
I will do any job and work hard
I'll be good for you why can't you see?

The song for the one is always there:
Thank you for being a friend
I love you hope to see you soon
I miss you thanks for the time you lend

To Colleges : calling you
I am tired of playing phone tag
Is it that hard to call me back?
So confused feel like I'm going zig-zag

To s.c. and others: scream from zoegirl
it that hard to call or a leave a message to send?
I mean some I understand
but s.c.you guys suck : the end.

To the group why can't we be friends
all dressed up ,you all feel so fake
you make it difficult ,in your groups
but still i go , guess until find people it's what i gotta take

same old same old

Kinda sad mostly what i have to look forward too lately is the fact i can watch tv shows i want too online now i see. other then that? not much. i haven't hung out with someone in a while other then work since i don't know when. i failed my driving test because of a idiotic mistake . i go to college group and it's ok last time went pretty well i guess. just sucks everyone is too busy. marissa hardly ever texts , jenny is busy, mom and dad are together , kay and thomas adele and joey. liz has school work her friends and life now. but nothing with me has changed. not really. it always seems at night i'm depressed. i don't know why. i had interview at daycare i really want to get it. ugh. talked to old friend and that was cool but he said he'd call ... so far no. so this sucks. just do what i can to stay busy listen to music take walks lately lot of tv. and it just sucks when your close friend when you do talk gets all over you because she's taking a communications class just because you ask her how are you . ugh. walks only thing that make me happy. kinda sad but almost true. not exactly. i love my fish. aha. i sound so pathetic. not all the time as bad as it sounds but i have moments. doesn't help i have no friends just about and my sister is a jerk because she's getting married-when she's here. i want to save money and go away for school . i really do. that would be great. but if i can get scholarship to work out still a lot of money left for living and food and books and stuff. :/ so that's my life right now. and plus if i could work it out to live in wa easily i would like too. *sighs* again as always i'm doing the best i can.